winding

i am frost-bitten upon realizing that

suddenly the diaphragm

refuses to cough out any more air:

(at least not this happy, not this cold).

at least not now, not anymore.

with vapours on me,

i know that the winds were once here

the tide you are in

perhaps it is time to open your eyes

and watch the fishes

that are your lighthouses

go by; and then you will know

that you haven't really been dry, even when this

human tide arrests itself

in masks of

4-ply

living is about

living is about

being able to offer

everything in one second,

and nothing

the very next.

Feelings In Possibles

Is it possible to feel alone and unneeded when you have so many loved ones around you?
Is it possible to feel unwanted when you feel you are worth something?
Is it possible to enjoy a decadent life?
It is possible to enjoy this decadent life and yet wish for a less decadent one?
Is it possible to be someone you are not?
Is it possible to be someone you are not and be happy?
Is it possible to be happy at all?
Is anything even possible?

i hate money.